Damien
Member
Accountability for what now? It's already clear I broke rules, I know I did the wrong things- I said what I did already- and I know very well that I had a very rough approach to it- but what's the point in dwelling on that when it's already clear to everyone. I mean of course I'm not clean and innocent, I never meant to imply that I was. Now mind you- a number of times I did report them and at some point in it I did talk about it to mods. When I used the word "blind" and "corrupt", obviously and I think you know I don't mean all mods in general, only the ones who didn't seem to really care to me. Please don't mistake this- I was not complaining about the things I did not being wrong and against rules- I can't justify my actions any other way than saying I'm getting justice for myself- and that's not a solid way. what I was upset about was that nothing happened to them. they got no warnings, no mod told them to leave me alone and stop mentioning me and even if- they obviously didn't and nothing happened- that is what made me believe it was unfair. it's nothing new to me at least. Its happened too many times and now I'm sick to death of it. It's just like how I'd get pushed around and bullied, I'd report to school authorities instead of doing anything back because apparently that was the "right way to resolve things"- and then they'd completely mishandle things and somehow leave my aggressors pretty much unaffected. then they'd come back tenfold on me because I "snitched". This detestable cycle would take place too many times for me until I began to do their jobs the way I saw fit, until I became both judge and executioner. So going to mods and reporting this actually wasn't that easy for me I'll admit, but I assure you I still did.I actually took the time to read the entire post. Zero accountability whatsoever on your part. It's all the other users' fault or the mod for "being blind and corrupt". Meanwhile you admit to breaking multiple rules, bypassing your ban and worst of all for me, not ever reporting the people targeting you for their behavior or reaching out for help from the people who are there to make sure it doesn't happen. The mods are there for a reason, and that is to deal with reports. You need to understand how moderation works and what the specific rules you got in trouble for are. You are simply pointing fingers and throwing the blame on everyone else, when in fact you are simply frustrated that you continue to get banned for bypassing. This is all coming from someone who is not in any way shape or form involved in this situation, and trust me Bobafox person and Steven nz hold no power over any of the mods so please don't give them any credit. I know very well how ridiculous Steven nz gets over the quiz scores and I do believe you when you say they instigated and goaded you into getting angry. You choosing to break rules for it is something you need to come to terms with. I say you wait for you to finally be allowed to come back, and in the meantime try and find ways to deal with potentially in life coming across people who are going to be like that to you again.
Anyways- clearing something up now- after what I've gotten from some of the people here. I doubted but now I know deep down that I truly feel no remorse for it. and better yet- I do not care about the rules I -plan- on breaking anymore, I'll always come back after whatever ban I receive with the intention of observing and keeping an eye on the two people I'm after. my priority is ruining those two, one way or the other, as I promised them . as well as myself. It's the only way I see myself being content once more.
So all I can do is respect that you guys are only doing your jobs. whether it's without emotions like robots or done completely based on emotion and impulse, or done the perfect way. in finding balance between logic and emotion. whichever way it's done- I'll respect that it's just you guys doing your jobs. But, I'll also try to do mine. even if it goes against you all.